I'm terrified to leave for college again?

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My first semester I went through a lot with covering my sexuality, I got into altercations, my friend was shot and killed at her boyfriends house. I passed all my classes though. Second semester, I started hanging with the upper classmen. I got jumped. I fell in love. Just a lot of stuff happened there.

But now I’m returning back after being gone for 2 years. The upperclassmen have graduated and my class are seniors. I’m still having self esteem issues with my sexuality and I’m pretty sure people will know due to stalking my social media.

How can I prepare myself in this situation? What should I do? I still feel like a freshman I will be out of state!

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Are you returning to the same college this all occurred? Would you be willing to delete your social media accounts since you think people are stalking them?

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Yes. And what’s the purpose if they have already went through all of it. :confused:

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I would’ve recommended you transfer anywhere else, and get a new start. I don’t see any benefit to keeping those social media accounts up either way, and would’ve deleted them as soon as you were aware they were stalking it.

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I agree with the previous poster. Is there any way you can transfer for your own peace of mind? As for social media, just delete whatever bothers you, people do it all the time, there’s nothing wrong with it. If you can’t transfer, things should be better if the issues were with upperclassmen who are gone. Are there any activities in your college town you can join? I do lots of community service outside of college and I love it, you meet lovely people and it’s a nice change once in a while from the same old college people.

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Don’t be ashamed of your sexuality! It is not a choice anyways. It’s not like you want to be that way(not that it’s bad or anything).

I would say find someone you trust to talk to or read books about dealing with this issue. Stay strong.
Talk to me if you want, because sometimes its just good to find a complete stranger to talk to (knowing none of it will spill out to anyone you know).

Source: I consider myself a therapist to most of my friends. I like to get to know and help people.