<p>I'm not very certain how it all happened. How being a loner became the norm for me. In my elementary and middle school years I would often keep to myself, but I still had a close knit friends. Know a Junior in HS, I'm finding being alone unbearable and I don't remember feeling this depressed in my younger years. It isn't as if I haven't tried to break out of my shell. I've tried talking to people and going out with others but it seems that I'm not really connecting with anyone. Out of all the social groups in HS you would think that at least an individual would fit into one of them: Pot Heads, AP Students, Preps, Jocks, Nerds, Geeks,, Band Geeks, Underachievers, Artists, Musicians etc, etc, etc. But none of them really call out to me.</p>
<p>I guess I thought that close friends would want to get deep and philosophical with each other and talk about interesting things but that doesn't seem to be the case. Most of the time its just meaningless conversations about the most trivial of things. I know that part of the problem lies within me. I expect way to much of people and I make most easy things a lot harder than they have to be. I will admit that I am a little shy and distant as well. I'm not sure if I'm just being distant from people or vice versa. I feel like I've done all I could. I've joined a few ECs and even have a few leadership positions but it hasn't boosted my social life that much. I don't want to have this problem follow me all the rest of my life, so If any of you guys have any advice I would greatly appreciate it.</p>
<p>thanks</p>