<p>Hi. I'm a freshman of 2018 a the university of Pittsburgh. I'm not ready to learn more. I'm tired all the time. I go to my classes and don't see the point. They bore me. I'm tired of going to classes and being evaluated. I want something meaningful in my life. I want to see things and go places. I'm not happy here. I feel out of place. I'm not a fan of the social aspects of college. I don't fit in. I know I'm not the only one because of the posts on an app called "yik yak." There are a lot of other lonely people here. But they still look forward to their studies. I sit and day dream. I wish I was somewhere else where I didn't have to be quizzed. I am taking algebra to relearn things correctly as my high was not the best. I made it to calculus but felt it would be better just to start all over. I'm already overwhelmed. I can't sit down for more than half an hour without wanting to do something extremely impulsive (suicidal thoughts, but I know I won't.) I try not to call my mom because it just brings me down. I haven't had a day go by that I haven't wanted to drop out. I've been here now for 13 days. I'm tired. I'm sad. I don't want to do this for the next four years. School just isn't for me. I keep coming to the same conclusion. I'm not a student. Nothing is motivating me to push forward. I just spend my days browsing the internet and attending different club meetings (radio, fencing, bodybuilding). I have no appreciation for this institution. I want to drop out. If I drop all classes by the fifth I will get a full refund. I'm just so tired. I don't drink. I haven't smoked pot for a month. I want to do something meaningful. This is all just so superficial and hollow. I have no options though. I feel like I may get to a point further down the road, when the pittsburgh weather really gets bad, that I will just drop out and hit the road. I feel like I'm wasting my money. I met a few cool people but it doesn't matter. If I don't have the motivation now, why would I get it later? I'm just so tired of school</p>
<p>To clarify, its not so much the school. I like the school. I like the activities. I met some people. I just don’t want to waste four years of my life doing something I don’t want to do. I passed senior year by doing the bare minimum, because I was tired of school then. I thought summer would give me some time to decompress and prepare. But it didn’t. I’m at the point of saying ■■■■ it and just blowing off classes and skipping out. There has to be another way to live that is more fulfilling and meaningful</p>
<p>WADR you sound depressed. Call the counseling center or a help line. Now </p>
<p>I’m going to go greek to see if the feelings of a brotherhood help,
I’ve already went there and they were closed which discouraged me. What’s it going to do anyway… I’ve been going through cognitive behavioral therapy on and off for 2 years. Then I’ll just have more to worry about</p>
<p>Going Greek will help, but please keep these things in mind:</p>
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<li>School is work. </li>
<li>The work is worth it, generally. You want to see the world, right? You need money to do that. And tpu need a job to make money. And school will help you secure a good job.</li>
<li>Many have felt down like you do now. That often happens when we come up against major life changes… and striking off on your own at college is such a milestone.</li>
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<p>Please take it from someone who missed a final because he forgot to set the alarm after staying up nearly all night to study:</p>
<p>Everyone experiences confusing and troubling times. But you will pull through them. Knowing almost nothing about you, I do know that you are pretty smart given your acceptance to Pitt. And the first few weeks can be tough. But I also know that with time comes familiarity, and with familiarity comes acceptance and even joy. </p>
<p>So – talk to a counselor, find some kids who share your interests, and remember to have some fun at school. </p>
<p>Joining a fraternity or sorority will place you among people who will care about you, who will have your back. But first, I think you should give yourself a bit of time to let college “make sense”. Go to a football game or maybe a party. Talk to some people. Learn to enjoy the school/life balance. You are in an enviable position – grasp it and make it yours. :-)</p>
<p>I have done these. It’s not that I’m worried about how I will fit in (its partially that), its that I do not like school. I don’t want to learn anything anymore. I’m tired of the drill “go to class, study, take a test, rince-repeat.” In essence, I would like to just get my hands into something that is actually real world applicable. I’ve been considering monastery work, peace corps, air force. Hell eve just becoming a nomad and bumming it out in another country. I’m not at the point in my life where I want to start working for society. In short, I don’t want to be a productive member of our world. Have not, want not. </p>
<p>I’m not motivated enough to make it 4 years. I feel like I should save the money now and do what I actually want to do</p>
<p>@Roflspammer college isnt for everyone(and maybe you’ve realized this), though nobody is really stopping you from donating all of your college funds to charity and taking a cross country walk to Alaska, similiar to Chris Mccandless </p>
<p>I actually want that. I think. I don’t know what I want. I read the book when I was 14 and was inspired. I just wish I could self sustain in this world</p>
<p>Have you looked for clubs/activities where you get to do real hands on something? I remember table I passed during move-in (to clarify, I’m just the mom with 2 currently @ Pitt) about tutoring with youth/refugees/something local? Something to get you out of the rinse-repeat feeling - to get you into a “real world” kind of thing. 13 days isn’t much time to really get the feel of the place or the classes. Getting a p/t job might be another way to get out? And speaking as a mom, please don’t hold back calling home, your Mom would want to know how you feel and would want to give you advice.</p>
<p>I recommend sticking it out and maybe doing some volunteer work. There are great organizations there to get involved. Habitat for humanity is a good one…you can go actually help build a house for a homeless person…what’s more meaningful than that? Read “The Purpose Driven Life”. You sound like someone who would enjoy service…it is the most rewarding and motivating thing you can do to get yourself going. You’ll also meet some great people along the way. Seize the day! You’re only young for a little while. Get outside your comfort zone and challenge yourself. I promise you’ll feel better. </p>
<p>@Roflspammer LOL I LOVE INTO THE WILD! Its my favorite movie of all time. I would suggest you tough it out and finish college, but if you do decide to take on a Bohemian lifestyle, then just remember the ending of that book before you do anything too crazy. </p>