<p>Cindy, I have re-read your post many times and there is a sentence that keeps catching my eye
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I keep waiting for that magical moment when I know that this is the perfect school for me but that hasnt happened.
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<p>I think that all of us at one time or another think there should be magical moments occurring in our day, telling us we have made the right choice. Its what the fairy tales and movies are made oflightening bolt strikes and it is love at first sight. The dust is removed from our glasses and we can see our future clearly and know we are on the right path. </p>
<p>Unfortunately, I dont think those magical moments happen too often. And when youre a teenager, I think there is a lot of second guessing going on. You dont know what you wantfeelings can change on a dime. Its a time for exploration, for figuring out who you are and what you want out of life. Second guessing is wonderfulthis is the time to open yourself up to a world of possibilities. </p>
<p>However if you were really excited about attending boarding school, you may have idealized how your life was going to be, without taking into consideration who you are and where your comfort zone is. While interests and skills change during the course of a person's life, the one thing that does remain constant is an individual's personality - the innate way each person naturally prefers to see the world and make decisions. You said you were shy, so it stands to reason, you will still be on the shy side, even at prep school.</p>
<p>So, perhaps, right now, you may feel a little let-down and disappointed. Add to that you havent made super close friends, and you may start questioning if you made the right choice. Is everyone having fun but me? Are they judging me? How come theyre all talking to these other kids, but not me?</p>
<p>You bring up valid points about the privacy issue. Gossip and rumors spread like wildfire in small environments, and people would notice if you had a new boyfriend. (It might be news for a day or two, but that would probably be the end of it. On to the next juicy story!) And I understand the roommate situation. Even though my daughter is very happy at her boarding school now, and has a slew of friends, she did say that her closest friend (ironically the one who made her cry the 1st week of school), gets all the boys attention; they all think she is hot. Considering how many boys were calling her while she was home on vacation, I dont think she is a wallflower, but everything is relative.</p>
<p>Only you know if youve made the right decision to attend your school. Truthfully, I think if you made some great close friends (including a boyfriend or two:)), it would probably change your entire experience. IBFTW suggested joining some clubs as a way to meet others. Are you in any right now? I am sure there are other kids there that feel the same way you do. I think it is great that you are trying to socialize. Eventually you will end up meeting other kids that you click with--it just takes time. Good luck and keep us posted!</p>