Hello. Let me start this off by saying that last year my friends graduated and went to a school not too far away from where we went to high school. I’m a year younger, so this year I intended on following them. Unfortunately some stuff happened and I stayed at the college in our city. Ever since then I didn’t move into a dorm because of family stuff and money reasons so I haven’t really been able to find any friends. I’m a sociable and friendly person and I have friends here it’s just stuff at home also sucks. My grandma is an alcoholic and it’s just horrible to deal with on top of school. I have no friends so I’m really lonely, and my cars broken so I can’t visit my friends. It just sucks that everyone else is living their lives in other states and cities everywhere away from this awful city and I’m stuck here listening to a drunk woman cry upstairs. I suck at school and i missed an entire exam because I was late to it due to not having a parking pass (my fault, whatever). I have adhd but can’t afford a therapist so I literally cannot work on anything. My grades are fine at the moment but I worry about maintaining my work load with my job. I literally haven’t even figured out loans and I’m losing my mind. I have no money because my job keeps cutting my hours. A 25 hour work week with 18 credit hours in school isn’t awesome either. I have a cat that I got because I’m lonely and he costs a lot of money and keeps getting sick and I just want to cry.
Pick one thing and fix that. Parking pass? Getting a counselor through the school? Figure out FA (loans) and get some money? After that one thing, tackle another. If you get some money maybe you can plan a weekend away to visit your friends?
Just one thing.
I agree. Work on one thing at a time. I lived at home all through college and never made a single friend at college. I had friends through work. I suggest you get a different job. Waiting tables or being a cocktail server can be very lucrative. I did that all through college and made friends and money.
Your cat probably needs a new home, so see if you can do the best thing for the cat and find a no-kill shelter to take it, or maybe another family member or neighbor. If you need a pet, try something very low maintenance like a hamster.
You say contradictory things. You have friends here, you have no friends here, you can’t visit your friends. Honestly, move beyond the friends who aren’t here. In a year or two, you will all move beyond high school friends. That’s what happens. Don’t dwell on what you can’t change.
As for your grandma, understand that her problems aren’t yours to fix. Your grandma, despite her problems, would probably be very sad to read your post. She doesn’t want you to be unhappy. Focus on you. Tune out her rantings and focus on doing school work when you’re at home.
Get yourself to the financial aid office. Make an appointment and keep it. See an academic advisor and be sure you’re on the right track. Make a calendar of what you must do and stick to it. You can do it if you are proactive and don’t dwell on the bad stuff. Good luck.