I wasn’t sure where to place this thread so here goes.
I go to UT(I thought It was my dream school) and I have almost always been a loner and just had friends i’d see in high school and rarely hangout with. The semester is almost over and I have made NO friends, There is only 1 person I know in all of my classes, and I don’t see him as a friend since we just talk about class. I am not in any organizations either, and I couldn’t find any I was interested in. I am always eating in my dorm/cafeteria alone, today( a Saturday) I didn’t talk to anyone at all. I don’t speak to my roommate at all. I haven’t been happy except when I’ve drinking, smoking weed, or dropping acid, I feel depressed all the time and think about killing myself often. When I decided to go here I thought I would make at least a friend,but that hasn’t happened and I just feel awful. I also hate the way I look, and thought that maybe if I bought new clothes I could make some friends or meet a girl, but that hasn’t happened either.
I’m doing OK in my classes, but I should be doing better because I have AP credit for these courses that I couldn’t claim.
I could really use some help/tips but don’t know what to do. Thank you for reading this.
Please don’t harm yourself. It will get better, I promise. First semester at a big university like UT can be very isolating and lonely if you don’t belong to a club. You have to join some kind of club/organization, anything …even if you don;t think it’s terribly interesting , go. Find something in your major. Do you like video games? Go do some volunteer work with one of the churches. You will meet others there , even others who might think the club is lame too! LOL. But please don’t harm yourself. It’s almost break time. You can go home and when you come back you get a fresh start…new classes. Join study groups. Please message me if you want to talk. I am happy to talk with you. I’m a bit of a loner too so I know the struggle and want to help.
Please make an immediate appointment at the counseling center. If you are unable to get an immediate appointment, go to the emergency room. Suicidal thoughts are an emergency and need to be treated as such. Please seek help from a qualified professional. Depression is very treatable and a mental health professional can also provide you with guidance for dealing with your social isolation. Please seek help today.
You have a lot to offer! You have worked and volunteered in the past. Both of those are great ways to meet people.
But you have to stop the drugs. They are illegal, they are going to kill your grades and three- a lot of workplaces drug test. If you can’t stop by yourself, get help.
Because you are considering hurting yourself, you need to get help. It is hard to see it in your situation but this is not a permanent situation.
UT has a Counseling & Mental Health Crisis Line that can help you. Call 512-471-2255. Also, if you can’t get anyone on the phone there right away, you can also try talking to the RA in your dorm. Best of luck!
If you are a freshman, talk to your RA. Go to everything your RA schedules; there must be some mixers.
Don’t be afraid to go talk to counselors. You are not the only one who feels this way.
Join a few things. Easy groups to join would be religious groups, community service groups, maybe something new at the Rec Center, like if there is a group training for a run. It won’t be a perfect fit at first, but just go.