Hi CC,
I guess I’m just here to vent. Seems better than making everyone irl around me miserable. My decision has me overwhelmed and stressed. I’ve pretty much decided to go to UVA, but having to put so much thought into my decision has gotten me to the point I am just exhausted of it and tired of thinking about it. I don’t feel any excitement over this. I did a couple days ago, thinking about dorm life and going away to the same school as two of my really close friends. The opportunities at UVA are great. I don’t feel ready for the big life shift and I’m worried I won’t fit in (I’ve read several forums not to worry and I’ll find my niche. So not too worried, but gosh it would suck to feel the same way I have in my class in hs. (I did find “my people” in more than one area in hs though))
you got into and are attending a great school so first off, congrats! i haven’t chosen a school yet so i know how stressful this can all be. it sounds like you need a bit of a break and maybe a “Treat yo self” type day. you made friends and found your niche in HS so i wouldnt worry too much about college social life, though trust me, it is something everyone worries about. if you wanna get excited you could think about how youre gonna decorate your dorm room, look at the clubs and activities you can join, look at the frosh orientation schedule. it’ll be great!
What’s the alternative? Worrying about a college you have decided against? Fear of the unknown is never a good basis for a decision. You’re done, stop second guessing yourself.
Read the pinned post on this forum about those who feel lonely, friendless, and think they made the wrong choice. You are not alone.
Congratulations on your admission and decision. It’s a long senior year, most don’t anticipate how grueling senior year can be with everything that goes into applying and waiting. Now that the waiting and decision process is over, perhaps after the initial excitement has quieted your mind has shifted to “what am I going to worry about now?” You will be ready for the transition when it happens. Remember it is a process and not a discrete event. There will be ups and downs and growing pains. That’s all part of this thing called life. Try to accept how you feel rather than fight it. One minute you are ecstatic the next panicked. Roll with it, it is okay. And make sure to try to have fun with your friends and savor what’s left of senior year.
Thank you all for the encouragement @Linagaf the alternative was a college right near my home, so it’s very hard to choose the “best” school, with all it’s opportunities and excitement, when I could stay near my family and community that I am very active in. I’ve never been someone who dreamed of going away to college, and I have never bought into the whole hype of going away. I love my parents, I have quite a bit of independence, and I have thoroughly enjoyed growing up in my hometown, despite how small it is and boring it can be. I feel like with going away to college, I’m being isolated from my normal life, and my initial reaction is to reject the concept entirely, and if I must do it, I naturally feel reluctant to living life somewhere else. It’s like in my head, college is college for academics & a career, and life is at home. I’m just struggling to accept that college will become life and home will still be there, even if it is not in the same way. I applied to UVA early action on a whim under some peer pressure, thinking hey it’s in-state and it’s a great school, and I was pretty ignorant of college at the time so I didn’t even know what defined a “great school” besides Harvard or Yale. It has taken a lot of thought to realize the opportunity I have. Whether I should have even applied is another question entirely thinking about how I feel about home, but I am a very strong student so I don’t want to sell myself short in that regard, either. If my aid package wasn’t as awesome as it is (offered a scholarship I prob won’t see again), I think I would be much more comfortable commuting for 2 years and then transferring.But I need to just go if I’m going to go, I know this is just a phase of coping with life changes.
Btw, I am so grateful for my opportunity, I understand others don’t get the same chance and that I’m crazy for thinking to turn it down. I think if I had had excitement about going away to college originally and these emotions/realizations had come later, maybe my decision process wouldn’t have been so draining.
Double btw, sorry for the long vent. It kinda feels good to write out all my feelings lol, they stay jumbled in my head & I don’t want to ramble to people irl lol
Also, I agree I should check out some other threads. I read one last night and it made me feel better knowing this is pretty normal