<p>When Steve Reich came to New England Conservatory last year, Jordan Hall was packed for three nights. There are a lot of very exciting (and popular) things going on in concert music, and the music is very varied and individual. Some composers may cite Led Zeppelin as an influence, other may cite Bach, or Beethoven or Shostakovich. As we have said, electronics and computers and mixed media are also big factors. Tonalism is returning and even neo-Romanticism. We go to student composer concerts at NEC and every single piece is totally different from the others. This is the mark of a great teacher.</p>
<p>I think that you may be thinking of the academic music called "serialism, " the influence of which is fading. Milton Babbitt even said that this academic music was for an elite, because most of the public was not educated enough to understand it. Similar trends were evident in modern dance, art, and theater at the time. As one dancer I know said, there was an attitude of "f--- you to the audience." Read this link:</p>
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<p>Sending 5 pieces to Yale is fine. They will listen to whatever they have time to listen to, and I'm sure they will appreciate your work. The music department will get it, not the admissions, as you probably know...</p>
<p>Most young composers are not the prodigy types who could play piano fabulously at age 5 and wrote "classical" pieces in first grade. Many people start composing in their late teens, or college years. There may be some kids taking composition lessons for years, but the student composers we know started lessons because they were already writing music and felt the need to go deeper with their craftsmanship. They tend to be older than the stereotype you may have. You are not behind at all, and have even taken some theory.</p>
<p>Teachers in composition, like writing tutors actually, are "non-directive." The effect of having a teacher occurs on many levels. Our daughter is a classical guitarist, and expressed a desire, in 10th grade, to find a piano teacher who would teach her about the workings of music: she had no desire to be a pianist. As it turns out, many piano teachers are now teaching theory, and asking their students to try composing as well. She found one, and he taught her to make CD's of her still pretty primitive work, and took her seriously, which is one of the most important things a teacher can do. In my opinion, all students should be treated this way.</p>
<p>From there, in 11th grade, she went to a very nice professor at a nearby university, who let her sit in on a composition seminar. In lessons, her teacher played her scores and asked a lot of questions, suggested books to read, and provided musicians to play the music once finished,as well as recordings (she now records her own). I can't explain the blossoming that occurred under his tutelage, it is mysterious to me, but has as much to do with emotional factors like confidence and hope, as with technical matters. This daughter is very private and would very much understand how you feel, but she would tell you that having a teacher is fabulous. Oh - and lessons were only once/month. She worked on her own and brought finished drafts to the teacher. That is how it works. You don't write while you are with the teacher, so it is no different from what you are doing now.</p>
<p>You may just want to continue as you are, writing privately and avoiding the academic seriousness of composition study. There is nothing wrong with that at all. Or maybe you will get into songwriting, music for film or tv, or computer/electronic music. You certainly seem to have a drive to compose, and some considerable talent, so I hope that one way or the other, you will continue! You are young, let it just take you wherever...but be OPEN!</p>
<p>If you are really not interested in teachers, and do not like "new music," then Yale may not be the best place for you musically, although using your music to get in in order to study other things is a common strategy. If your interests continue along the same lines though, and you do want to work on music, as opposed to having it as a private sideline, then you might want to look at NYU or Oberlin or Bennington, even Berklee, or other places folks can tell you about here.</p>
<p>BTW, my daughter is in a small section of a class, with 4 students in it, at Harvard, doing music history that is very difficult. One of her classmates is a well-known rock guitarist from LA, 32 years old. He developed carpal tunnel syndrome and, while recovering, wrote an orchestral piece that was produced at a big multi-media event in LA, with media interviews and everything. He had no background in serious music, at all. At Harvard, the guy is completely terrified, but very excited,, as he tries out academia for the first time. I see his story as one of amazing courage and humility. I'm sure that, at age 18, while he was playing in a band in the garage, he would not have predicted this turn of events. Like I said, be open to life and where it takes you.</p>
<p>You do have ability. It is undeveloped, but definitely there! Keep developing it by yourself, or with friends, until you, yourself, feel the urgent need to go further with a teacher. You may never feel that need, but music can still be a big part of your life.</p>
<p>As a last note, while I appreciate your perception of parents on here as "earnest," I must tell you that I am not well-versed in music myself, and have struggled to keep up with things in order to provide my kid with what she needs. At this point, all of my children (3, a musician, dancer and computer scientist) have moved beyond me to the point where I don't have the slightest ability to guide. They have found others to do this, teachers who know how to guide them. But during those years when I took books out of the library, attended concerts, and listened to my kids teach ME, I sure did have a lot of fun.</p>