<p>While going through some exceptionally tough parenting decisions with one of my boys, I later looked back and realized (much as I’m sure your parents do) that if I’d had all the information from the onset I would have done things differently. I beat myself up a very long time for that. My mother lovingly and wisely told me ‘you do the best you can with the information you have at the time’.</p>
<p>As horrific and traumatizing as what you have endured I would like to offer that your parents did the best they could with the information they had at the time. I am not invalidating your wish for an apology, only asking that you might see that their intentions were for your health.</p>
<p>You can not control other people, you can only control yourself. It sounds as though you have access to good health care at this time. Perhaps you could work with a therapist or counselor who could help you. The type of anger you feel is destructive and will eventually keep you from full recovery.</p>