<p>I will cut the chase and tell you why I think I am losing my mind. This is something that I do while I am in class, while I am studying, while I am eating, while I am watching TV, while I am doing just about anything: I picture images of former classmates laughing disrespectfully at me. I imagine scenarios where I meet those classmates and they disrespect me as much as they did when we were in high school. I imagine them spreading malicious rumors about me and turning their friends against me, more or less like they did when we were in high school. When I left high school I felt so blessed that I was finally going to leave that hell behind me but it's almost like my mind is still there. I must be mentally ill, right?</p>
<p>Not mentally ill…</p>
<p>You just need to fill your current life with more stimulus to push all that crap out. On to bigger and better things. :)</p>
<p>No, not mentally ill. I guess you had gotten so used to their taunting or what not, that when you’re free of it, you continued playing it in your head. Have you seen a therapist? Maybe it’s some temporary stress related form of OCD- nothing to worry about- the best comedians have OCD: Lewis, Larry David, Howie Mandel, etc, etc.
Try facing these thoughts head on, with a therapist. You’ll be fine, I hope everything goes well. Give yourself a break!!</p>
<p>Just out of curiosity… What emotion do you feel when you have these fantasies? Do you feel angry, depressed, embarrassed, or what?</p>
<p>No, you’re not mentally ill at all. Just very anxious that the past might repeat into your future, or fear that that could happen to you.</p>
<p>Hey, gotakun fantasizes like that about me all the time and he is perfectly fine . . . maybe. Meanwhile, you are definitely struggling with obsessive/paranoia ideation, due to stress. You are not psycho (neither are you gotakun). Simply mention this to your primary care doc. State that these thoughts keep you from focusing. He’ll give you some meds. Worth a try. Do something soon because your neural pathways will get used to running their routes, digging a trench, that is difficult to undo. My best to you.</p>
<p>Have you tried stabbing them with steely knives?</p>
<p>@TrueLove
That was a textbook case of projection if I ever saw one… Who was it again who could just “hear” the malice in my tone? Yes, so angry…</p>
<p>gotakun, I am so just playing. C’mon. I really enjoyed our sparring a few threads back. You completely misunderstood my ribbin’ ya! You are fun!</p>
<p>Welcome to the good life, where we like the girls who aint on tv, cause they got mo ass then the models</p>
<p>This is not mentally ill, even though it is an issue. If you’re mentally ill, this will manifest itself in more than a distraction; namely, it’ll blur your reality.</p>
<p>If your college has any counselors / therapists, you might want to speak to them. I’m no doctor, but I personally think it’s actually a mild form of PTSD from high school.</p>
<p>"Just out of curiosity… What emotion do you feel when you have these fantasies? Do you feel angry, depressed, embarrassed, or what? "</p>
<p>Pretty much.</p>
<p>Definitely talk to a professional and work on being able to move past these experiences. High school does NOT define you, and you still have the rest of your life to take different paths, make different friends, and be the person you’ve always wanted to be.</p>
<p>You have OCD my friend.</p>
<p>Is it curable?</p>
<p>But hold on, where are the compulsions?</p>
<p>It could be reincarnation. According to what I’ve heard, if stuff like that happened in your past life, then it could explain all these thoughts too.*</p>
<p>O.o</p>
<p>Anyways, either a) see a professional or b) try to create some good memories in college with your new friends. It will help you forget some of that high school BS</p>
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Pretty much? How did that answer my question? (“What emotion?”)</p>
<p>Maybe he’s saying “all of the above”</p>
<p>"Pretty much? How did that answer my question? (“What emotion?”) "</p>
<p>I feel angry. How else am I supposed to feel?</p>
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Maybe you should just see a psychologist? He/she might be able to help guide you back to happiness. It can’t hurt to try, right?</p>