<p>As can be gathered from the few posts I have written, I am very excited to be attending UC Berkeley. It is the culmination of years of hard work and dedication. Admittedly, I feel a sense of false bravado as I am afraid of how I will deal emotionally. I am already in a long distance "relationship" and it seems that around the time I was accepted to Berkeley, he started pulling away from me emotionally. That was in May....now its August and when we talk, its like I'm talking with a stranger. Somehow, the love has seemingly dissipated. I don't really think that there are people who are going through what I am going through right now. I feel a tad guilty as I should be completely ecstatic about Berkeley....but the truth is my heart aches...as I had planned to do great things with my life and at school, with the secret hope of him being there with me. He will not be there with me and as our relationship fades away like dying embers, I find myself feeling so incredibly...sad. Any advice would be great and I apologize for the length of this post in advance.</p>
<p>You will not forget but you will be in a whole new experience and will build a new life and you will be happy.</p>
<p>I keep telling myself that...and at the same time I keep hoping and waiting for him...to come back. Admittedly, I have been moping for the weeks up until move in day and now I am afraid I will still be moping when I get to Cal and Im concerned my grades might falter. Sure, mind over matter....but when your heart comes into the equation, all bets are off. sigh</p>
<p>well there are tons of services available if you need to get some additional talking stuff.....</p>