<p>So here's the thing, it's only day five of really being at college but I'm already feeling legitimately depressed. I'm at least a thousand miles from home and I feel just completely alone. It's weird too because I generally like being left alone and I thought this would be a good decision but I just hate it. The thing is too that most people get excited to go to college but the closer I came to actually going, the more upset I became-the more I didn't want to go at all. And now I'm here and I just HATE it. I cried the first two days and I still have the occasional tear or two but now I've just kind of settled into a flat-out depression. I'm not really social though I've been managing alright when we have mandatory activities, I guess I'm making friends, like people like me and all, but I just don't feel like I belong here at all and I don't feel happy with it. Plus I'm just kind of shy and anti-social in general so I do LIKE just sitting in my dorm room and reading or watching Friends, but then when I do so, I feel pathetic because I know I should be out being social like the other people. Like I'll enjoy myself for a little bit during the day and it doesn't feel so bad, but I don't ever feel really happy, you know-just kind of fake happy? I haven't eaten right either in the past five days and I just feel sick. I feel like I can't breathe and every time I do try and eat-because I know I need to, I'm not anorexic or anything, I swear-it just feels like I'm choking it down and suffocating while I'm doing it. I don't feel like it'll be as bad as soon as class starts and maybe I get a part-time job, but I still don't think anything will improve. People keep telling me to give it time and that it'll get better but you know how sometimes you just KNOW it won't but no one else seems to understand that? I just feel like the next four or so months are going to be completely miserable and I'm almost going to need antidepressants to get through it..I'm already seriously considering transferring to one of my old state colleges because I feel like I'll be much better off if I'm closer to home and my family and some old friends. Basically I just need someone to understand how I'm feeling I guess? Is anyone else just completely depressed and miserable?</p>
<p>It WILL get better when classes (and maybe work) start and you have a purpose in your life. What you are feeling is normal. Sounds like basic homesickness, and you need to keep yourself busy to ward it off. </p>
<p>Take care of yourself. Regular sleep pattern is essential, as well as exercise and eating right. Focus on doing these things for yourself. Put out all thoughts of transferring so you can give this school a fair chance. Remind yourself why you chose it over many others. </p>
<p>Don’t let this temporary feeling overwhelm you. It WILL pass. If you still feel like it’s not a fit after 2 semesters, consider transfer then. In the meantime, give yourself some credit. You are a capable person who is growing up and learning how to take care of yourself and make decisions. Try your best to be positive, even if it feels fake.</p>
<p>It is an adjustment that a lot of freshman go through. If you still find yourself feeling bad after classes start, try seeing a counselor at your campus. They provide services for this kind of thing. Just try to stay positive. College is a great experience, it will get better!</p>
<p>Just try to get through first semester with the best attitude you can. You would be very surprised at how many college freshman transfer back to a college close to home. It is not the end of the world, you can transfer also. Just get the best grades you can and try to enjoy yourself this semester.</p>
<p>You hate that you aren’t getting asked by people to join them.
You hate that you are homesick and not having the a-mazing time you envisioned for so many months.
You hate that you feel like a big weepy baby.
You hate that you feel everyone is having fun and you are missing out.
Guessing you are having a mini panic attack with the can’t breath thingee.
Go to the Student Center and talk to a counselor if you want a shoulder to cry on.
Almost everyone feels as you do once or twice in their life.</p>
<p>Loneliness is normal when we leave our family and old friends, but we don’t admit it because we know that we will eventually make friends and start loving being independent and away at school.
Keep us posted on how you are adjusting.
You will laugh at yourself in a few years about how you thought moving back home and going to your state college was a good idea.</p>
<p>Kelassie, it sounds to me like you have a good dose of the homesickness virus. It will get better! Give it time. Did you ever go to sleep - away camp when you were younger? What about sleeping at a friend’s house, or away with cousins, etc? If you did those things, you probably experienced homesickness then too. Do you remember if you did? If you didn’t do those things, and this is your very first time being far away from family, then you are just going to have to trust others who tell you this does get better over time. All of us, no matter our ages, miss those we love when we are far distances from them. The good news is that with technology, there is nothing stopping you from getting some Skype time or FaceTime in for a bit. Pick up the phone for a few mins if you need to. Do you have a camera? Take a bunch of pics of your dorm room, things on campus, etc, to send to people or post online. You don’t have to feel isolated and far away if you make efforts to get in touch.
You can be sure there are other students feeling the same way as you. Just re-assure each other. And, my big thing, is to encourage you to get to know upper classmen, either your RA in the dorm, or people in clubs, etc. They loved the school enough to attend. They are happy to be back at school. Get to know them so that you can see what comes after the homesickness fades a bit! Stick with it, and give yourself time!</p>