<p>Alright, I'm not really sure where to begin. </p>
<p>I go to a private university with about 5,000 undergraduate students. I haven't made a single friend here - I have a few acquaintances but no one that I can really hang out with. I eat alone everyday - which I don't mind but it just validates the fact that I have no friends. Everyone seems to have already formed their cliques, so it feels like high school all over again. And I thought college was supposed to be better than high school? I like to party too and I haven't been to a single one yet and it's Friday night right now so I hear all these people hanging out outside my window. </p>
<p>I tried when school started to really assert myself, meet new people, and be who I am, but after a while it got tiring and now I've reverted to the more reserved side of my personality. I know that's where things go wrong (friend making wise), but there is this great weight upon me that's holding me back from being who I am or being who I want to be. I don't know how to release it and in turn my fervor and spirit withers away each day. And it just keeps getting harder and harder. I've tried to keep myself from crying but these past couple of days I had to just cry. I also have to prevent myself from crying in the middle of the day and in public. </p>
<p>I really like my professors and the courses I'm taking, but that is really the only good part. The academics aren't that much harder than my high school AP courses so I haven't really experienced stress from that aspect. It's just the school...and the people here. It feels so isolated. I don't mind doing things on my own that much but I hate the fact that I'm trapped here. There's no escape, no where to walk to (no car, although I'm getting one in a few days so hopefully things will get better then). Also, I'm NOT homesick. </p>
<p>Anyway, I'm just wondering, is anyone else having a hard time in college too?</p>