Apologies ahead of time for how long this is going to be. I graduated from high school last year, and despite getting a good scholarship to the biggest state school, I decided to go to community college in Santa Barbara California, a place I have always wanted to live for numerous reasons. I was attending school there for a few weeks, but through a really sudden series of events, I had no place to live. At the same time, the state school I’d been accepted to earlier said that if I came back to them, they would still give me my scholarship. My family gave me no choice, so for the last 2 quarters I have been attending the state school. To make a long story short, I feel absolutely miserable here. The entire state is absolutely in love with this school, it’s like the pride of Oregon, but I hate the city it’s in, 90% of the people that go here are only about partying or greek life, I have yet to make one friend, and I miss my family. I’ve looked at transferring somewhere else, but there are only a few public colleges in Oregon, and all of them don’t work for some reason or another. I can’t afford to go anywhere else, the only reason I can afford this school is because of the scholarship. I really just don’t know what to do; I hate this college so much, and I didn’t even want to go here in the first place, but there’s nowhere else I can transfer to. I also miss Santa Barbara, but can’t afford to move there again/live there. What do I do?
Does your school have a student health center? I would start there to talk to someone SOON about your feelings of isolation and depression. Your anxiety must be through the roof. At the same time, please make an appointment with the dean of your college or someone in that office. There is help for you but you need to find it. Much more easily said than done, I know. Freshman year in college is a difficult time. Please reach out to someone whose job it is to help students, ie, the student health center or an academic advisor.