<p>So there's approximately one month of school left and all my grades are either low A's or high B's. However, this may take a turn for the worse. I am very self-conscious about my appearance and my performance in school. I feel like everyone is against me, granted I have very little friends whom actually bother to give me their time. I'm constantly tired, even after a sufficient amount of sleep. My ability to keep up in my studies has been on the steady decline recently, and with 5 AP classes to study for, and several projects due, I can't afford to slip up, but my recent grades have suggested that I may soon enough. Regarding my self-esteem, it's nonexistent at this point; I have no desire to move at all, and I feel like everything I do will be heavily scrutinized ( And with a highly critical AP Chem teacher, it's more of a reality). </p>
<p>My once ravenous appetite for learning and hardship has stepped aside for lackluster effort and self-defeating thoughts, and I can't seem to do anything about it. I feel like I'm entering an early stage of depression, which I've already gone through once during the entirety of freshman year. </p>
<p>All my peers are excelling in every way, and I seem to fall flat in just about every category: academics, socialization, sports, jobs, and intelligence especially. I feel that if I can't fix this dilemma, it can have detrimental effects to my school life and myself in general. My parents emotionally abuse me and my peers go out of their way to avoid me. I feel empty and alone. I want help. Any insight or direction is greatly appreciated.</p>