<p>Lalah,
I’m not sure if the title of this thread was hyperbolic to express how much pain you’re experiencing, or if saying you were a walking time bomb means that you’re concerned you’re going to “blow up” and harm yourself or someone else. If this is how you feel, it is even more important that you get yourself some support right now. It sounds as if you have a current therapist, and I hope you are sharing the depth of your “walking time bomb” feelings with her. Also, if you feel a need to talk with someone who is specifically dedicated to addressing emotional and family issues with people from your cultural background as well, there seem to be mental health services throughout the DC/Maryland/VA area that might be of help. One place you could call that fully understands domestic violence issues in South Asian Families is at DVRP, the Asian/Pacific Islander Domestic Violence Resource Project. They are in DC but I suspect that they would have local referrals for you who would understand (literally) where you are coming from. If you would like to speak to someone from a similar background, there is also an association of South Asian mental health professionals. This is their website is: South Asian Psychological Networking Association. It should be possible for you to find a referral to a therapist, or a list of possibilities, through this organization. If you need to just talk to someone about your feelings 24/7, this is the phone number for a hotline where you will always find a sympathetic ear, 1-800-273-TALK
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